sorry to post such a mushy post, but i just gotta let it all out.

i love my boyfriend.

he might not know it, or he might not ever know how much i love him.

even though there are times when i joke about him and all, but deep down, i care for him a lot.

every morning, the first thing i wish to see is his msg, but it seldom happens.

ever morning, i wish i had a morning call from him, but it will never happen.

every few days of a month, i wish for all his care and concern, but i get none.

every day, i worry for him, think of him, even if we meet each other.

every day, i think of what i can do to make him happy, think of sweet things to do for him. but he might not even know.

but it all doesnt matter much anymore because;

because of him, i learn to take public buses more, think of which buses can go where.

because of him, i learn to travel alone for even 1 hour at times, all alone, just to surprise him.

because of him, i learn to save my pays and allowances to buy him a good gift at times.

because of him, i realised that i can actually care for someone so much.

my best friend asked me previously, would i cry for days and night, lose all my appetite, lose my sleep if we were to end one day.

out of all the above mentioned, i dont deny the fact that i will definitely cry at times at night. because even now, i still cry for him.

when will he ever realise all that im going through..when will he show me his utmost concern.

no matter when, i hope he knows that i will keep waiting..till the day, we both go our separate way, which i hope will NEVER happen. (:

i must start learning to treasure a true heart, no matter how many flaws it has.